I can’t help but ask myself: Do I deserve this? Do I deserve such a wonderful person who is, as many people believed, so perfect to be with just a mere human being incapable of so many things and who finds it hard to change the jarring ways in which she has grown herself with? Do I deserve the love, the trust and everything that he’s giving me?
I don’t deserve all of these. I don’t deserve any of these at all. But that’s for now. Nobody can change over night as they say, and the first step to change one’s failing is to accept it. And then, move forward… or in any direction you wish as long as you move and move with a direction. Sooner or later, by becoming the person that we want to be, all the flaws and failings that we used to have will find their way out of our own selves. Hopefully, when that time comes, it is not too late.
Someday, without any assurance if that day will come, but supposing that it will… I will deserve all of these. I will be a better person worthy of all the love in the world, especially his or his alone and all the things that I used to have, have, and will have.
Today, hopefully someday comes… But if for whatever reason there might be that that someday fails to exist, I won’t be troubled because by some means, I am trying my best today.
Heraclitus believes everything is changing. Now I won’t be the one to contest that.
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